leaving Nepal

Namaste' Nepal.
as i drove around on the motorcycle yesterday taking care of little things before going to a little family dinner to say goodbye, i was trying to soak in kathmandu deeper and deeper to take with me in some ephemeral way. I was welled with tears as this place and it's people have brought me as a young schoolgirl said.. "unspeakable happiness". I heard her speech at her cooperative school on parents day telling everyone how happy she was to have the chance to go to school and what that meant to her and it all brought her repeated "unspeakable happiness" .. an ineffable experience. it was beautiful to hear so much gratitude..
I feel the same way and i know it will take some time to unravel what it all meant to me at this time.. being here was like unraveling a tightly wound rug, slowly slowly unwiding itself to be free. me, my heart.. such a beautiful feeling. I am supremely grateful ...
I"m now going to embark on my adventure in Thailand where i'll meet Fran and Jim from hawaii in Bangkok and get into some fun trouble there.. for now i'm enjoying the last few hours with the kids, I"m packed and i'll be taking my last cool shower for awhile i hope.
I even had a rickshaw ride last night with kamala to come home from dinner.. he had no light and i'd given my headlamp to Sabitri, krishna's sister as she doesn't have an inverter for whent he lights go off.. load shedding.. best use of the light as they say here.. like best use for toilet paper is wiping hands and noses.. best use of the light so she could see what was in her kitchen as she was cooking.. these people are amazing mostly for me for their beautiful attitudes towards each other and life.. open, allowing, caring,, warm.. affectionate.. just lovely and i've been blessed to be here..
off to the shower.. much love to all of you and i look forward to being with you all when i return..in may.many blessings.
Shoshana